Well, I’m glad to hear that!! You should messaged me on there :) I’m pretty bored right now!
So here you go!
Teenytinytough.tumblr.com :)
Does anybody have advice on redirecting a page?
I know that in the pages drop down menu there was a redirect link, but on the new layout its not… i dont think… or am i missing something?
Ask me for URL, I dont really want to connect it with this blog :)
How do I miss these things?! I didnt even notice.
I grew up in the Southern Baptist Church. My dad was a pastor, and I think that there was a lot of pressure on me to be “perfect”… I was a representation of my father, and what I did was reflected on his parenting skills and all of that. Then I realized how awful it was knowing what goes on behind the scenes at a mega church..
I think all of that is the reason that once I got into Highschool, I just went off the deep end. Eating disorder, and Self mutilation.. I stopped going to church.. I just stopped caring.
When I met my husband, he really helped me through a lot of that. He started going to church with me and we built our relationship on godly terms.. and now that we’re married, we haven’t been to church once in the whole 10 months.. we’ve studied together a little, but we haven’t found a place to call our church home. I’d rather sleep in on Sundays then deal with church… it all seemed so fake, and I’m tired of fake.
But I realized today, that I can go somewhere, or even just be at home and study and exercise my relationship with God.. and maybe right now thats why life is so messed up.. because I’m not trying and I’m not trusting in God with this situation.
Maybe God is just breaking me down (like we break down our muscles to build them up) to my most vulnerable form, and then he’s going to build me up.
I know that doesn’t sound very nice, but I think in all of the crap I’ve been through in life, this is the cycle I’ve seen.
As the verse James 1 says “My brethren count it all joy when you fall into various trials knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience”…. Maybe thats true then.
I Just feel so broken right now.. sigh..